“Do you wish to rise? Begin by descending. You plan a tower that will pierce the clouds? Lay first the foundation of humility.” – St. Augustine
Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall live, and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?” – John 11:25-26
Vista: “an extensive mental view (as over a stretch of time or series of events)” – Merriam-Webster Dictionary
May 19, “The Mountain Comes Into View” 5:03 AM
Today is the day I’m going to do it. It’s here, it’s now. I know it’s going to be hard, but it will also be remembered. I’m ready for the challenge. The difficulty is not distracting, in fact I welcome it. “No pain, no gain,” they say. Well I agree with that sentiment right now. Not all the time of course, but for right now I do. The air is thin and thinning. I wonder if there’s going to be an emergency. I’m a little scared of that. Emergencies can’t be rescued here. This isn’t the Mountain of God we’re talking about. It’s not Zion. There’s no salvation on top of this hill. Just a view and a mood. I’m looking forward to the memories. I’m not sure about the experience though. This is a once in a lifetime event. Lord help me value it.
June 20, “Awake” 7:28 PM
My first conscious moment was today. My first since the mountain came into view. Not sure what happened. Just that the last words I wrote were, “Lord help me value it.” The only reason I know that is because I read them. I’ve been thinking about my last journal entry. I’m not sure what to think of it. There was a mountain, that’s for sure. But I’m not sure I was right about it. I’ve been told it’s a miracle I’m here. That I was rescued… Lord help me to be thankful.
August 13, “Realization” 6:03 AM
There isn’t a mountain void of God. Zion… The Mountain of God… It’s on the vista of anyone willing to see. It’s climb will be a struggle. But it will be remembered. I think I get it now. That life is a challenge. That there will be emergencies. There will be beauty and destruction. There will be the feeling of suffocation and the exhilaration of achievement. But there is always rescue. In fact the rescue is sometimes in the emergency. God isn’t at the top of every mountain, He’s not at the pinnacle of achievement. He’s in the rescue on the slopes. He’s in the emergency in the valleys. We can’t always reach to top. And when we do, it’s not us that’s important. It’s Him. I love the mountain. The metaphors that come from it. Then again, life is a metaphor in a way. Failure, success, hardship, ease. God teaches through all of them. He sure taught me on that hill. Humility… That’s what I really need to reach. For me that’s got to be the hardest climb. There’s no room for selfishness and pride on the top of a mountain that bears the Cross. There’s no room for that garbage, because the whole place is occupied by His presence. It’s by His grace that we reach anything. No matter if it’s the bluff in the back yard or a peak on the other side of the world. I don’t think the memory of the mountain and it’s cold and snow will ever come to me. They say the fall destroyed a little bit of my brain. But I will always remember what it did to me. That it brought me low and lifted Him high. That Jesus was placed atop the mountain in my heart. I’m thankful for that. Lord help me to share it.
A fictional journal of a person on a climb…
Daily Journaling Questions:
- How did I help someone in kindness today?
- What did I learn today?
- What am I thankful for?
- Who did I love today?
- What am I dreaming of?
- What about today do I want to remember about today?
- What are my goals for tomorrow?
Thanks for reading,